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7/17/2007 ただいま！One of these days, you would notice the contrast between your latent desire to write and the constant predominance of your procrastination. It doesn't have to be a bad thing. It often means you have more to do in life than bury bytes into your blog server. Other than the fact that I forgot my precious Transformers video (dubbed by 上海电影译制制片厂) in Canada, a number of experiences on my way home have pleased me. Air Canada stopped being chicken and started serving 3 meals during the 10-hour Vancouver-Beijing flight, as opposed to the previous 1 or 2 servings and the even worse rumour that they would cut down the water supply (Come on!). The video-on-demand was available and worked really well. I watched two solid and fairly up-to-date films <In the Land of Women> and <the Lookout> (may wanna write sth about them later) and that was about it. But as soon as the power-plug in the back of the frontseat caught my eye, nothing could stop my laptop from getting onto the stage. After reading a few chapters of a Ph.D. dissertation, I tried to do some coding but my fatigue discouraged the attempt. My sweet massaging pillow showed what it got and freed me from the annoying neckache I suffered in the past. FINALLY, the bathrooms in the Beijing airport are now equipped with tissues. This long-awaited feature is really handy even though we got a barely bearable tissue quality there. I do hope this feature could spread throughout the country :P A city holding 20-million population as it is, the appalling transportation load and the air purity in Beijing could be a debate next year. A timely rain storm in Wuhan washed away the burning weather for a day or two, which prepared me for the authentic summer in Wuhan. My T-shirts were consumed with sweat one after another soon after Apollo was back to his work. It was not until when I had the physical contact with somebody here that I realized my comes and goes. Otherwise, it tastes no more than an inter-urban trip. Physical contact is an instant fertilizer to a desolate emotional field. Kids are dying for a parental hug while adults still need to breathe the breaths of family, friends, and lovers. In a sense, you never leave a place. You only leave people. 7/7/2007 Activators and DeactivatorsIf your mental behavior is comparable to an electrical current constantly looping through numerous gates, the external influences and your own motivations play the activators and deactivators. Excessive suggestions about self-development are seen in all philosophy books to date. Plausible enough, they all ask us to soften our frequent defensive postures/gestures because acceptance is considered an ultimate and global solution to all problems in life. It is expected that in this state of mind, the dichotomy of activation and deactivation would cease to exist and a pleasant unity would emerge. While we are still on our way to such an ultimate realm, we will have our daily encounters with all kinds of activators and deactivators. They usually show themselves as information, mostly artificial, and more often than not, personal opinions from human-beings around us. We tend to loosen our critical judgement to people in the physical vicinity, parents, roomies, close friends, etc. Because a lie between two truths is the most delusive of all, it becomes so easy to absorb or reject their ideas without careful evaluation. "Reality is as subjective as truth." Thus our personal reality was frequently distorted without notice. IMHO, our mental state, however, is the most functional compass of life. The activator's input may hurt in the beginning, but once it takes effect on your mind, it dwells upon it until you make your move under its guidance. On the other hand, although the sweetness of the deactivating MEMEs may slow you down, reduce your blood pressure, and probably turn off your clock, but deep down, you could clearly feel that you have been disarmed. Some gates are closed. And I bet that more often than not, you would taste the bitter core of such deactivators' tricks soon after the sweetness dissolves. Yes, the mental gates are more experienced than our top-level consciousness. Far-reaching networking in life makes information literacy a prerequisite diploma for all survival games. Until the ultimate acceptance kicks in, I do think we need to keep ourselves alerted to the activators and deactivators. There were a bunch of Chinese people who I trusted for a while. But as the time spent with them increased, the feel of getting deactivated grew as the space was silently filled with their pollutive ideas, such as money omnisciency, science is useless, a "realistic" woman is THE perfect wife and you can play the game your way after they pass their thirties because they knew there is no point for divorce, being absolute realistic..., and so on and so on. Living together, or routinely spending time together is not a passport for mental deactivation. The true deactivators, who can release convincing MEME, have their own complete value system, making it hard for you to resist the delusive offense. But, these worms are either indifferent to your fundamental interests, afraid of seeing your determined personal develepment, or jealous about something you possess but somehow has been underestimated by yourself, in short, 不怀好意. Once you recognize the deactivators, leave them behind ASAP or adjust the distance between you and them with art. More important, mark them as DISTRUSTED in your contact list. There was this person I had trusted most until a word came out: "If I were you, I'd fail my comprehensive exam and transfer to a Master program and leave school right away." It was this blatant and ruthless attempt of deactivation that activated my judgement. On the delightful contrary, another distant friend of mine always supplied me with courage and resolution on the road. Just those limited number of activations can immediately lighten up your horizon, erode the shackles of fears, and unleash your inner power. Those activators are the true life savers. This whole story applies to relationships as well. Priceless relationships are the ones in which both partners feel themselves activated to a higher level than without each other. Statistically there is no such thing as smoothness in relationships. No matter how physical or personality attraction may lead to a mutual approaching, how irresistible the emotional reliance arising from causes other than the harmony of both value systems may appear at the very beginning, a deactivating relationship will deactivate at least one of the partners and eventually the link between them. It'll end in tears if the attendees find themselves in constant melancholy. This is a lively display of the idea. After all, the activators and deactivators are IDEAS. They are invisible. Leaving or staying with a physical human-being or a cultivated addiction is not the absolute solution. "Fools find reasons. Wise men never try." Don't let anybody or anything deactivate you and don't miss anything, anyone, any relationship that could activate you for maybe only a minute, no matter what they are, where they are, and how you are. -- Kakyo 7/6/2007 PHD comic
experimental translation (1)The East has thrived on contemporary Western vocabularies for quite a long time now. Then IT era is making an overwhelming delivery of its own terms. The Chinese translations barely catch up in an awkward hasty. On the other hand, the adopted scheme in canonical translation efforts is usually directed towards an overly academic flavor, striving for distinguishing the emerging terms from their ubiquitous origins. Under such a tradition of over-engineering, a mutation-mania has somehow been cultivated. Enough of crap. Encouraged by the Web 2.0 social-annotation. Let's play our linguistic natural selection. callback function
7/1/2007 秋风：二十年后看戈尔巴乔夫
Source: 秋风：二十年后看戈尔巴乔夫———天益：学习型社会领航者 |
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